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I had an “emotional Meltdown”, let’s talk mental health & what is helping ME to cope with life

“More than 80 percent of college students felt overwhelmed by all they had to do in the past year and 45 percent have felt things were hopeless.” *

“Almost 73 percent of students living with a mental health condition experienced a mental health crisis on campus.(7) Yet, 34.2 percent reported that their college did not know about their crisis.(8)”*

*Source:https://www.csc.edu/care/resources/statistics/index.csc

Hi friends & welcome back to my Blog.

I wasn’t sure if I wanted to write this post in the first place and I’m not sure if I’m going to one day regret writing this post as I am typing right now. This will be a very honest, open, and emotional post. And I was never a Fan of “let’s share why you’re messed up on the Internet” type of person, but then I figured that it might help other people and that there is also a testimony I want to make. Seeing the number of College students struggling with mental health issues shocked me and so here I am telling each and every person reading this blog post: Mental health issues are real !! Please, get help if you need it, you don’t have to do this alone.

So, let’s talk openly.

But before we do that, here’s a Disclaimer/Trigger Warning: I will talk about my emotional meltdown, I will talk about what helped me personally, not what will help every individual person. This post might be triggering to some people. I am not a licensed psychologist, I am not a professional, I will only talk about about my personal experience and offer my personal advice. I will link every source I use. Please, seek professional help if you need it !!

A few weeks ago, I had an emotional meltdown.

Ok, but what is a meltdown ? If you type “meltdown definition” into google, the first thing that pops up is this definition from the Urban Dictionary:

“1. Describes what happens when a person freaks out, cracks, loses control of themselves. Life – reality at large- becomes overwhelming. They just can’t deal with it all. The person may act outwithdraw, become emotional, run, etc… ”

(Source:https://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=meltdown)

You freak out, you lose control of yourselve and life becomes overwhelming. That’s exactly what happened to me. Now there are many forms of emotional meltdowns, for me it was crying uncontrollably for days, even weeks. For others it could be snapping at other people, lashing out angrily, running away from stressful situations or panicking.

The point of it all is that no matter what, during a meltdown you always feel like life is too much ! There are certain triggers for emotional meltdowns or meltdowns in general. These triggers include:

Being overtired, taking on too many responsibilites, being in the middle of a life transition, being in a stressful situation, being in a toxic/stressful relationship, working too much, and so on and so on….

So what was it for me ? What made me finally snap ?

The short version: University, failing classes, putting too much pressure on myself, worrying about the future

The long version: The feeling of being a failure and the overwhelming feeling of loneliness were too much to handle at one point. With University there is this constant feeling of, no matter how hard you work you are not good enough. Failing any class means that you’re stupid, you’re not good enough, you’re a slacker. There’s feeling of doubt, insecurity, shame, failure. You lose focus, you lose happiness and hope, suddenly I found myself not wanting to leave my bed, not wanting to eat, not wanting to socialize. Suddenly I cried for hours, feeling worthless, feeling lonely. Suddenly I felt like Life was too much to handle.

So how do you get out of a meltdown and how do you prevent the next one ?

  • First, let it all out

I was crying for weeks, it’s the only thing I could do at that point and then one day my Dad took me on a long walk and talked to me about how hard life is ,-that’s when I lost it. I let it all out. I talked non-stop about my fears, my worries, university being too stressful right now. That’s when I felt a little better. I need you to do the same ! If you have the chance to talk to someone about your feelings, please please do so ! If you don’t want to confide in people in you real life, seek anonymous help online, but please, talk to someone and let it all out

  • Journal about your feelings

If you are not a big talker, you can always write down your emotions, your thoughts and your feelings. You don’t even need to write full sentences, you can write down one word, the important thing is to express your feelings on paper. Again, let it out !

  • Be kind to yourself

I know that this is the hardest part, but try to be compassionate towards yourself. Forgive yourself for needing a break. We are always compassionate towards other people in a situation like this, so why not be kind to ourselves when we are in similar ones ?!

  • Remember that everything is going to be ok

Everything is going to be fine, you will be better again. I promise you that you will be fine. I know you don’t believe that right now, but I promise you nothing is bleak forever.

  • Lastly, get professional help if you need

There’s a lot you can do on your own to lower your stress level. But if self-help measures aren’t providing the relief you need, please seek a professional for help. For depression, anxiety, or relationship problems, a psychotherapist — such as a psychologist or licensed clinical social worker — is beneficial to your mental health. The important thing here is to seek the help you need & talk to someone.

(Source: https://www.wellandgood.com/emotional-meltdown-coping-tips/)

A short testimony

Lastly I want to talk about what really helped ME to feel better and what is helping right now to cope with life :

After letting it all out, I confided with my Dad and then later my Mum about my feelings of failure ! I am blessed to have understanding parents and loving parents that I could talk to. They helped me immensely by listening to my worries and fears and giving me advice afterwards.

My meltdown forced me to stop socializing (because I physically couldn’t even talk on the phone to people or message them) and I’m still in this state until this very moment. I am slowly getting back on track with socializing, but I’m not putting a toll on myself. I talked to my cousin a few days ago and only went back on Instagram today. So what is helping me is taking it slow when it comes to interacting with people and with the use of social media. So take all the time you need off from social media !

The most important thing though that helped me and is still helping me, is my religion. I want to be honest with you guys and I am 100% truthful when I say that the thing that kept me going was my bible. The word of God, his love. At first I felt as if God has suddenly forsaken me, leaving me all alone with my worries and anxiety, but there was this constant voice in my head that told me to open the bible. One day I did and the first verse that I read was:” I drew a picture of you on my hand. You are always before my eyes.” in Isaiah 49:16 and then I started crying. Because reading this verse made me realize that God, who drew a picture of me in his hand, would never forsake me. And he didn’t. This is my truth, and I want to share it. So if you think about it, it’s only logical that sticking to God was the thing that helped me immensely.

I felt like I had no worth, but then I opened my bible and I read: Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows. (Luke 12:7, ESV)

I felt anxious, I felt hopeless but then I opened my bible and read: When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy.(Psalm 94:19)

I felt lonely, but then I opened my bible and read: I will not leave you nor forsake you. (Hebrews 13:5)

I felt unloved, but then I opened my bible and read: So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him. (1 John 4:16)

So yeah, reading my bible helped, thinking about God helped, knowing that I am loved, that I am not alone, that someone is actually there for me helped. When you feel like nothing more than a disappointment, I encourage you to meditate on the peace and assurance found in Scripture, I encourage you to remember that Christ values us.

I’m not saying that my religion is the only thing that helped me, I’m saying it is one of the things that did !!

This is where I want this post to end. You are not alone in your feelings of failure, in your anxiety, in your loneliness. If you have an emotional meltdown, I want you to read this post and be hopeful that it will get better. With time, it will get better. If you suffer from any mental health issues, please seek professional help. You can always write me & talk to me if you need ! With much love, Syl ❤️

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  1. Aw Syl I’m sorry you had to go through that. Its not easy and I’m just glad you were able to find your way out of it ok. Thank you for sharing with us, and I really hope everything turns out for you ok. I get the feeling of failure, but you just have to remember that you have made it this far, and you can always make it even further. Keep going, and just know we’re all here 💙

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  2. I love love love this post, and the statistics you added at the very beginning. It’s shocking to learn about the state of humans’ mental health, we often overlook its importance so much. Another thing about this post that makes it so extremely informing and helpful is the prevention techniques mentioned. I care so much about the mental health of others, and it really touches me to see posts like these. They’re very reassuring.

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    1. You are so kind 💕
      Thank you so much for your kind words and I’m glad that this post is informing !! I really want other people to know that they are not alone and that there is a way out of this !
      Thank you 💕

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